The last couple of weeks have been such a whirlwind! The good kind… You know, the kind that makes you jump for JOY!
A few days before I left for my two-week Tampa~~>NJ~~>Upstate NY~~>North Country, NY~~>Montreal~~>NYC~~>Jersey City~~>Tampa trek, I attended a Native American Full Moon Ceremony & Drumming. There, I ceremoniously let go of “that tough situation.” Life after that Completion has been so yummy!
My journey North was healing…
I was able to spend some quality time with My Baby Girl. The last time I saw her was in April 2011. Way too long. I realized that I had let that “tough situation” suck me in so deeply I forgot to live Life! I spent two years of my Life
wallowing in suffering & depression AND I wasn’t going to take it anymore! My Baby Girl became a Little Lady and I had missed it. I also realized that our first day together at the Bronx Zoo, I was talking to her like she was a 5-year-old. She is 12! She’s an amazing inspiration to me still. I watch her as she does what she’s passionate about and it fills her up! She still loves Michael Jackson like crazy! I remember feeling the same way about Menudo. It’s energizing!!! She is also an amazing sketch artist! I see how she does not allow anyone or anything keep her from feeling what she calls “that fuzzy feeling” you get when you do what gives you JOY. We had incredible conversations where she told me, “You know, Titi, people think it’s wimpy to let go, but I think it takes courage to let go of what you want.” Look at the Wisdom I’ve been missing out on! I vowed to spend more time with her…
Spending that time with My Baby Girl ignited something inside me. The zest I had for Life re-awakened and she was a Wild Manifesting Banshee!!!! I spent the next two weeks…
JOY is the highest energy of all. It’s the magical sense that everything is possible. JOY springs from appreciating the gifts within each moment. JOY allows you to attract and create your present and future moments at their highest possible levels.
The JOY I feel as I get to explore this beautiful world and connect with others is so exhilarating… This journey had many JOYful moments: Dinner with old friends in NYC! Cocktails with some clients-turned-friends in Downtown Jersey City! Holding my friend’s two-week old baby girl in my arms!! Cracking up at how her hiccups sound like a squeaky dog toy! Deep conversations in Hoboken! Dinner with Old and New friends in Montreal!
Big Girl conversations with My Baby Girl! Singing along to I’ll Be There with My Baby Girl! Giggling like a little girl at how cute Michael Jackson is on This Is It!! Bodega meet ups!! Yelling, “Free at last! Free at last! Thank God almighty I’m free at last!” at the top of my lungs near Journal Square! Running through the cornfields yelling at the top of my lungs!! [I've got video to prove it!] Brunch with Old and New Friends!! Jumping for JOY all over the State of New York!
And the cherry on top of all that yumminess is that I fell in Love! Yes, I said it. I said it and I’m not ashamed! I find it sad that we don’t use that word more often. It’s the new 4-letter word. I’ve always been impulsive. I’ve also been told that is not a good thing. Who was the
genius who thought it was a bad idea to throw your whole heart and soul into what gives you that fuzzy feeling? When did we become so cynical to the POWER of the basic principles of LOVE, TRUTH, JOY, PEACE, GRATITUDE, FAITH… ??? It’s not just for hippies and children, people! It’s for humanity!
Speaking of FAITH! I have FAITH in humanity. There is a powerful spiritual shift happening on this planet. Brilliant children like My Baby Girl are leading the way in reminding us that life is too precious to not be full of JOY, PEACE, LOVE… I spent two years in “that tough situation” wallowing in emotions that flat out
DID NOT FEEL GOOD! Life was passing by and I was missing it… Do I regret it? Not one bit! It forced me to go within and discover my Diosa and I love her fiercely! I’ve learned to honor Her Truth. Always.
In the last two weeks, I’ve been learning to read my body’s signals. She knows when something’s off and she let’s me know. It’s like Abraham Lincoln said, “When I do good, I feel good. When I do bad, I feel bad. And that is my religion.” I’ve become so sensitive to the energy shifts in my body and I don’t like the negative shifts. I do whatever I can to get out of whatever is causing even the slightest negative shifts as quickly as possible. I have too many places to see and too many people with which to connect. I’m addicted to the fuzzy feeling!
Most of all, I’ve learned that tough times are as inevitable as good times. The most valuable thing I can do in both times is go within.
This photograph brings me to tears… The night I got home, as I was editing my pictures I came across it and thought, “Wow! She looks so at peace!” I realized I had come a long way to feel what I was feeling in that moment captured by the lens… I deserve to be blissfully at peace! I spent the night crying tears of GRATITUDE & JOY! I slept 4 hours and spent the morning on my knees crying tears of GRATITUDE & JOY! My body was radiating so vibrantly it was shaking for hours that morning. I’ve been bursting into tears of GRATITUDE & JOY multiple times a day! As I write and edit this, I have to stop every so often to wipe away my tears of GRATITUDE & JOY!
I remember not so long ago spending many months with sleepless nights in tears of sadness…
My niece and I have boiled it down to this ~ when I’m full of JOY, it feels good all over my body right down to the core of my soul! When I’m not, I feel it all over my body right down to the core of my soul. It’s a no brainer…
I’m truly thankful that some of my Loved Ones cared enough for me to tell me to slow it down! I absolutely understand they do not want me to get hurt “just in case it
doesn’t work out.” However, I’ve grown a lot spiritually in the last 40 years… Loved Ones, I got my big girl panties on! Don’t worry about me.
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